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When Life becomes more Important than the Things you Desire in Life.

Desires, I had many. Habits, loads. Good and bad, and in between. In the past two months I have had to let go of all of them, in order to live my life, to have longevity. I have had to, (out of necessity), let go of all my ambition and desire. Just let it wash… Read More »

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There are no problems, only solutions. Finding a new purpose for this thing inside my brain. Where to next?

So already, the picture they painted for me was one of little hope, but as you may already have figured, I have faith that life is guiding me. If there is no answer in conventional medicine, then I will find the solution elsewhere! Never give up, never surrender, unless it is your heart to the… Read More »

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Just some ponderance..

Some days I feel like I am completely healthy, I know I am. But, there are those days when I feel that something is amiss. This something, is a sensation, a feeling I can not put my finger on. Nor figure out, nor understand. I just know that it needs not be investigated further, that… Read More »

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A series of scans and blood tests. Take my blood. Do what you need to do. Just tell me what this thing is! Please…

I tried to get back to reality. The reality is though, that I could not discern reality from fiction. So now, following on from my recent post… I spent the next few hours calling my close family and telling them the news. Crying and feeling scared out of my mind at what was to come… Read More »

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How it all came to be. It started out as just a migrainous aura but turns out to be a possible tumour.

So, how best to explain this tale? Do I start with the cold hard facts? Or do I start from a place of comfort and security, where life was just getting in order for me. I feel that I should start from a deeper and darker place in time. To explain how I came to… Read More »